Saori Otani

Being here, rather than changing myself, I felt that by facing myself instead of running away, I could gain awareness, learn, and allow that process to naturally lead to change.

I have always wanted to find a way to stop reacting so quickly to people’s words, to stop feeling irritated and on edge. Being here, rather than changing myself, I felt that by facing myself instead of running away, I could gain awareness, learn, and allow that process to naturally lead to change.

1. Holding Back My Questions

I was told to first hold back my questions (to practice restraint in speech), yet I still found myself wanting immediate answers.

2. Aligning Footwear

I had always heard the phrase “line up your shoes properly” and believed I understood it—but in reality, I only thought I did.

3. Picking Up Trash

Before we started picking up trash, someone said: “Trash is like the regrets and unpleasant parts of your past self. Pick it up with care.” These words resonated deeply with me, and even now, I continue to pick up and acknowledge the parts of myself I don’t want to leave unattended.

4. Gratitude Must Be Cultivated

“Gratitude and appreciation are not instincts; they must be nurtured.”

I had taken so many things for granted. The way we respect and support each other in our daily work was reflected in the communal activities at the temple, such as labor and meal preparation.

5. The Meaning Behind Every Action

Even the simplest actions—bowing, walking, standing in waiting positions—each held deep meaning. Once I understood this, my heart followed. The etiquette during meals was not easy, but conducting myself in a refined and disciplined manner within that dignified atmosphere made me feel as though I had developed a deeper sense of self.

6. The Gift of Health

On the first day, I carelessly fell and injured my ribs. I worried whether I would be able to complete the program, but I gave 100% of what I could do. This experience reminded me of how precious health is, and I now want to take better care of myself.

7. Living in the Present

On the night before the final day, I received guidance on my standing position at Yakuseki (the evening meal). I thought, Tomorrow is the last day—I’ll do my best! But the next morning, the person who had guided me was gone, having left on a business trip.

At the final gathering, I assumed I would see and thank everyone who had taught me, but unexpectedly, we parted ways without meeting again.

This made me realize how often I think, I’ll do it tomorrow. I’ll see them again later. But nothing is guaranteed.

I will hold the Five Reflections of Daily Life close to my heart and cherish the words I am given, making sure not to waste the now.

Thank you.