Biden Tosui

Please make me your disciple's disciple.

Thank you very much, Mr. Ogu Osamu, his disciples, and everyone at Fukugonji Temple for allowing me to be a part of the life of the temple.
I think I caused a lot of trouble.
There were also many unskillful words, actions, and things I noticed.
I was able to clearly face my own incompetence. I would like to express my sincere gratitude. thank you very much!
As I said to the disciple I met on my way home, I am truly hopeless, but please make me your disciple.
Although I am not a good disciple, I hope that I can follow your disciples as a role model and continue to improve myself one step at a time.

When I got home, my second daughter immediately decided to go for a walk with the dog! So we went for a walk with the dog.

I took a walk around the neighborhood for about an hour, almost at a trot.
This is unbelievable to me so far.
It’s been 8 years since I was paralyzed on the left side of my body, and even though I had already recovered a lot, I decided to myself that I couldn’t run anymore.
People close to me were also stopping me when I tried to run.
When I looked at it, I felt like I was going to fall…my walking posture was so unsteady.
However, at Temple Stay, I was running and taking breaks repeatedly, trying not to cause any inconvenience to everyone, and I was able to run much better.
I think I had decided for myself that I couldn’t do it.

I first learned how to throw five bodies at Butshin Sangha Academy, and practiced it several times, but I couldn’t seem to get it right, so I practiced it during the precepts, and miraculously, I was able to do it, but since then I have tried doing it at home every once in a while. However, by the first day of Temple Stay, I was feeling like I was in jeopardy.
After my muscles hurt on the second day, I couldn’t stand up at all, and even when I received a lecture directly from Osamu Daigu, I couldn’t stand up at all.

However, I felt that the disciples were watching me during morning and evening classes, and I practiced several times to avoid deceiving them, and on the last day, instead of relying on my strength, I managed to stand up. I’m very happy that it happened.

From now on, I will continue to take short walks with my dog and do body throws every day.

Returning to the story of your disciples, they put a lot of energy into their words, thought about how they would get the message across to the other person, and then spoke carefully, and even when they made a mistake, they didn’t hesitate. He tells me…don’t put your hair in during that time! Even when I said that, it was a very mysterious and fascinating kind of guidance that didn’t make me feel at all intimidated, but made me become more obedient.
It’s really amazing, and I wish I could become a person who can treat children and the people around me like this.

Also, I was a slow eater, and it seemed like I was getting even slower towards the end of the day, but a student who was eating with me at the same table casually held my chopsticks until I finished eating. It was really reassuring to know that you were waiting for me.
And somehow, I was really moved by how easy-going and non-intrusive the consideration was.

I also realized that even though I’m not usually someone who can eat quickly, I might be greedy and want to eat more than I can eat.

And even though I ate so greedily, when I got home and weighed myself, I had lost about 2 kilograms.
I was surprised to find that I received three pieces of Akafuku on the train on the way home.

We also enjoyed the corn soup, apricot tofu, and leek eggman from the food stalls.
It was very delicious.
I bought meat buns for the kids as souvenirs.
There’s no doubt about it…it tastes great!
Even my daughter, who is picky about the taste of Chinese food, was impressed. I think it means delicious.

On top of that, the food prepared by Mr. Jiniwa was delicious.
Thank you for the meal!
In particular, I’m going to try making the broccoli with salted kelp and the meat and potatoes of the wheat gluten as soon as I can.

As a request, I would like Mr. Jiniwa to hold a vegetarian cooking class.

Well, when I got home, there was a pile of loose hair from a human being, a dog (a black Mameshiba), and a cat (a long-haired pheasant). . I was really grateful that the children stayed home with the dog and the cat. After eating the meat bun, I casually used the Quickle wiper and cleaned the toilet, although it wasn’t as casual as when I was at the temple.

From now on, I want to wake up a little earlier in the morning to do my daily cleaning.
I also wanted to get rid of unnecessary items and create a cleaner room so that my children would want to clean.
My room is cluttered with things that I can’t get rid of, but after looking at the temple for a few days, I started to think that it would be much better for my soul to let go of all the things and make the room cleaner. I did. I hope I can get rid of more clothes, books, and other things I don’t need.

Speaking of cleaning, wiping the tatami mats and wiping the wood deck was an intense experience.
It was a great time.
Here again, I often felt like I couldn’t do it anymore, but I was really grateful that my student showed me a more skillful way to wipe at a time when I felt like I was about to give up.
Many times I felt like giving up, saying, “I can’t do it.” But when I saw the disciples not panicking or moving, I felt calm, and when I wiped a little bit of dirt off with a good wipe, they would go back into the zone again, which was very interesting. It was.

Cleaning the toilet was also very interesting.
It feels really good when the toilet is clean.

I also want to clean the toilet and mop the floor every day.
Come to think of it, during the morning work before the morning pilgrimage on the fifth day, I was able to wipe down a long hallway one way for the first time without stopping. I was very happy.
On the first day, I couldn’t put any strength in the left side of my body…I couldn’t move an inch, but I realized that mopping the floor was much better for rehabilitation than poor rehabilitation.
As the days went by, I became more and more looking forward to this morning work.
I hope we can continue this at home as well.
I’ll try it right away tomorrow morning.

I am savoring the happiness of having my dog and cat sleeping next to me, but please come visit us again at Temple Stay.
As I mentioned to the student I spoke to on the way home, I thought it would be great if I could take her second daughter with me next time.
She will graduate from high school this month, but she will begin her study abroad life abroad in the summer.
Before that, it’s the essence of Japanese culture! What is Japan that I felt at Temple Stay? What is Japanese culture? I hope you can feel that.

While walking the dog tonight, I felt like it was okay to talk about this, so I decided to go. I asked, and somehow it felt good.

I’ll take a closer look and then ask again.

I apologize for the endless post.
I don’t think it’s very likely that those members will be together again. However, I believe that the experiences I had with my disciples, everyone I stayed with at the temple stay, and everyone at Fukugonji Temple will become very important guideposts for me in the future. There are still many things we can’t do, but we appreciate your continued guidance.

Last but not least, at the Dhammapada sutra reading session on the festival day (I thought it was a reading session for adults), I read the opening passage that said, “Things are based on the mind, are the master of the mind, and are created by the heart.” If one speaks or acts with an impure heart, suffering follows him. Just as a wheel follows the footsteps of an ox that pulls a cart.” This quote really resonates with me in comparison to my disciple. It remained.
I would like to live my daily life with the same attitude as your disciples, making every effort to speak and act with a pure heart.

Temple Stay was a truly valuable and turning point experience.

Thank you very much, everyone.